Miss Scarlett came very unexpectedly but dang was I happy to get rid of the back pain I had been suffering through. It all started with an instagram post I did that night, I think I cursed myself when I wrote that the thought of waiting two more weeks made me want to die. My husband had gone out of town for business and my doctor said I would probably go full term so we didn’t worry at all about his leaving. He had just landed and was driving to the hotel at 11:00 that night when we said our good nights. I watched one last episode of (who knows, I watched everything on Netflix, Amazon Prime and Vidangel that could possibly be watched) since I couldn’t sleep the last few months of pregnancy and tried to go to bed.

Suddenly after about thirty minutes I woke up in a panic because I thought I peed the bed! I jumped up really confused at what had just happened so I googled it of course After reading several women’s  similar experiences I decided to call the doctor and get their opinion on the matter. They told me to come in just in case so I did just that. I grabbed my purse and drove myself to the hospital. I tried to call my husband and my mom and five other people but by this time it was 1:30 in the morning and no one was answering so I just said, “Scarlett this better not be the real thing.” Needless to say, she didn’t listen and when I got to the hospital they told me it was go time.

I finally got ahold of my mom and she came for support. I am not going to lie, I was really scared, I was exhausted and kind of in shock and most of all really mad that Tyler wasn’t there. I called him again and he answered (thank goodness) and I told him to get the next flight back. Once he booked his flight, they told me they were going to try and stall until about 7:00 that morning so he would hopefully make it in time. They started the contraction medicine and since I was already dilated to a 3.5 and 80% effaced, I was at a ten in no time at all. I got an epidural but it only worked on one side so I was definitely feeling the pain. Just in the nick of time Tyler arrived which was at 9:45am, the same time they started to get the epidural to work completely. Then they told me to push and little Scarlett came out at 11:47 that morning.

I remember being so tired I was trying to sleep between pushes but I also remember how supportive Tyler, my mom and my little sister (who conveniently is a nurse) were with all of their encouraging words. It was everything and nothing I expected but it was so amazing. The minute she was born Tyler burst into tears…sobbing tears, I had never seen him cry more than a handful of times throughout our marriage and there he was just sobbing. I was so shocked I couldn’t cry, I just kept looking at him.

Her tiny little 6lb 2oz body was so special to hold in my arms and have my family and my sweet husband by my side. It was such an amazing experience and I will never forget it. I just can’t believe her little body was inside me this whole time.

We chose the name Scarlett Elaine Kizerian for a few reasons. One, I love feminine names that have a classic quality to them. I also love Gone with the Wind and how strong and beautiful Scarlett O’Hara is in the movie and when it came down to it, we both liked the way it sounded with our last name. Her middle name was a given even though it didn’t totally flow and it makes for a very long name. Elaine is a fourth generation name from my grandmother to my mother to me and then to Scarlett. My grandma was really excited about it and what could be better than that.

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Well, you might recall my last pregnancy rant about how hard being pregnant was emotionally for me and how much I hated it even though I knew it was a great blessing to even get pregnant. Now that I am in my second trimester it has been a world of difference in literally every way.

To begin, I can’t believe I am already 23 weeks pregnant! It has been quite a jorney these last 6.5 months. During the first trimester I cried about three times a week, and had body image depression (if that’s a thing), now I am so happy to be pregnant. I haven’t felt as emotional as before and now that I actually have a bump and can feel my little nugget, being pregnant has been a joy. It’s kind of hard for me to say that after I complained so much but thats just life, it changes on a dime and you’ve got to just go with the flow.

Not being nausious has been amazing!! I didn’t have it as bad as most women since I never threw up, but being nausious all day can be laaaaaame, so it is a huge relief. Everytime I feel my little baby girl kick I get so happy, I have long coversations with her and pretend she is into the same things as me, since we hang out all day.

Overall, I just wanted to say how grateful I am that I get to be pregnant with a sweet little girl that will forever bless our family. I have been trying to make little videos of things I want to tell her so she can watch them later and hopefully appreciate the effort it takes to come to earth. Life is so good, even if it is a rollercoaster, the comforting thing is that it always works out in the end. Cross your fingers for me that my third trimester can be as dreamy as this one

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